9:15PM | mood: annoyed
Ronnie nibbled on the little inside eye rest thingy of my already-bent-from-being-sat-on glasses and now they’re even more fuckin’ irritating to wear. i am on the waiting list for an appointment at the optometrist but i won’t get in ’til the end of October, probably.
in a couple of days it will be the one year anniversary of the night Nathan & Mere met. today i got a random invitation to admin a private facebook group that she set up in 2014 for our EIT study group. Jax got one too. it felt like her.
i wanna cry.
i hate her being dead. i want to talk to her so bad.
i should talk to Liv and Harriet more. i should talk to Lily. i should talk to other friends.
i feel alone but not lonely. the bridge of my nose hurts where the thingy is irritating it. i wish i had more sense. i hope the optometrist calls sooner rather than later.
12:32PM | mood: less annoyed
i was grumpy before because i thought Phil was ignoring me but it turns out he left his phone here so that’s why he wasn’t replying. he called me from the landline to tell me he missed me. i laughed and told him all about how i was raging. crack up. it’s nice to be missed.
i miss Mere. i should probably have a good cry. or message Liv or Harriet, would be better. i’ll do that.
i did it 🙂